[ Against his will ( what will? he has none, no ability to resist the worst, no capability to rally against the tide — ), he concludes his efforts to be — to be, what? What does he want from Liem, beyond to be at his side? Perhaps the way he has been thinking of the small, growing thing between is but a delusion. After all, he is a madman.
If a friend cannot bear to give him honest counsel, he knows he is not worth what it would take for Liem to love him. Such pain he would cause such a dear person. And yet, he still covets it all. Hands slipping from where they had rested, warm around Liem's body, to caress up the length of his arms, to his hands. Set squeezes them, quiet and visibly rueful. Not quite apologetic, but ridden with regret. With unease that grows catastrophically fast. ]
Of course. We need not — you need not burden yourself with concerns further than your heart can bear. I will carry the rest for you.
[ Because a love like Set's is lesser, he doesn't know why he asked the question. Liem gave him a ring, and people have been asking him to whom he is "engaged to" and such a thing does not exist in his era, but he read about it and recognized it and wondered — ]
But. Did you know what people would think, to see me wearing your token?
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[ Against his will ( what will? he has none, no ability to resist the worst, no capability to rally against the tide — ), he concludes his efforts to be — to be, what? What does he want from Liem, beyond to be at his side? Perhaps the way he has been thinking of the small, growing thing between is but a delusion. After all, he is a madman.
If a friend cannot bear to give him honest counsel, he knows he is not worth what it would take for Liem to love him. Such pain he would cause such a dear person. And yet, he still covets it all. Hands slipping from where they had rested, warm around Liem's body, to caress up the length of his arms, to his hands. Set squeezes them, quiet and visibly rueful. Not quite apologetic, but ridden with regret. With unease that grows catastrophically fast. ]
Of course. We need not — you need not burden yourself with concerns further than your heart can bear. I will carry the rest for you.
[ Because a love like Set's is lesser, he doesn't know why he asked the question. Liem gave him a ring, and people have been asking him to whom he is "engaged to" and such a thing does not exist in his era, but he read about it and recognized it and wondered — ]
But. Did you know what people would think, to see me wearing your token?